I'm unable to fully explain in words, the changes my life has seen in the last year. I never thought I would be successful on this journey, certainly not to the extent that I have been. The greatest gift I have ever received, was so many of you telling me that YOU believed in me, even when I didn't believe in myself. It was replaced with a belief that I could be better, that I could get back to being me. It was replaced with hope and positivity. I never will be again.Īlong with the 140lbs and almost 100 inches, the pain and anger went away too. Early on last year, I talked openly about how I didn't know who I was anymore. My internal fight with anger and negativity has been equally hard. It has certainly become easier, but I still fail sometimes. Every day you are faced with making the decision to eat well. Food addiction is a very serious, and very horrible thing. I have battled demons I never thought I could beat. There has been very little that has been easy over the last 12-13 months. It's about having a second chance to live the life I always knew I should have. It's about hearing my dad tell me he is proud of me. It's about children having a father that they adore. It's about a wife who finally has the husband she deserves. This journey is about so much more than the numbers. It's been tough, I have gone thru every emotion imaginable. I have been trying to find a way to explain to you all how I feel for the last week. By the grace of God, and the love and encouragement of some amazing people, I am found. Most important of those being my marriage. I honestly didn't think I could mend the relationships I had strained because of my negativity, and my anger. I never imagined I could get back in shape, that I could get healthy. I never really thought any of this was possible. I was so lost I didn't even realize just how amazing my lot in life was.
I wasn't supposed to be 400 pounds, or stuck in mediocrity in my life. I was convinced that the world had done me wrong. I was negative, miserable, sad, and extremely broken. I believe without that day, I may not be here today.Īt the beginning of 2014 I was 400 pounds. 17th 2014 was the first day that I got up, got on the mat, and took control of my life. I'm 10 days late or so getting this posted, you get the point).įeb.
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